What If You Being You Was Enough?
I was recently telling a friend about parts of my own evolution.
How my own internal healing has shifted my external world so much.
How I have “up-leveled” my external world in leaps around my internal evolution.
How I had gone from leaving a film career and agents at CAA and a TV pilot and a commercial directing job… and spent hours at night creating my website and writing.
How at one point, paying $1200 for rent was a stretch…
How, when I got my beachfront studio paying $1800 a month, it was a major leap, and I had just left my commercial directing gig and didn’t know what would happen next…
I got a book deal.
Clients were coming in.
I was leading events and being featured in press…
WTF?! It was a wild moment.
And then I did a major leap where I left that studio and sublet’d a two-bedroom, two-bathroom house and car of my dreams…
Saying: “This is what I need. A home. An office. Where I can do my work. Show up to others.”
The car was a bit of a bonus. 😉
I was terrified that it was shallow and material of me to want this much space.
To want a car that felt good.
I practiced living within the world I wanted to live in.
And… things kept coming to me!
It was quite magical.
I was also doing very deep healing work. I was single and working hard on my patterns, sitting in ceremony.
AND tithing or donating portions of my income.
And I was TERRIFIED to take the leap on the two-bed, two-bath apartment, one block from the beach. I was so scared.
“What if this is too much?”
And, I did it.
And, I felt the same with the car.
“Omg is this ridiculous? The convertible of my dreams?!”
But, I did it!
I grew into the life and world I wanted to live in.
And yes, I worked my ass off to get there.
But, I also faced SHADOWS and limits to get there.
First was money…
Then came love…
But, that’s a story for another email. 😉
I am not a money mindset teacher or coach.
I believe if you work on the inside, the outside will meet you.
I believe if you do work that is in service, you will be met in your own evolution.
This looks different for everyone.
For me, I have consistently taken risks and lived in my authenticity.
And this has always paid off.