Be Here Nowish – Season 2

2015, WEB SERIES

An original comedy series about two struggling New York women who ditch their dead-end jobs and head to LA in search for fun and spiritual awakening.

Co-created and directed by Alexandra Roxo. Vimeo on Demand, premiered with The Guardian and Vimeo.

Rent for $3.99 on Vimeo

⁣I love this image so much. It’s from the firs

⁣I love this image so much. It’s from the first gathering for my yearlong program INITIATION for 35 women who either want to become space holders and guides or want to be mentored in the launch of a creative project this year.⁣ It is a moment of sacred feminine ritual and practice - going inside, feeling it all. Our practice.
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I had envisioned we would be together in these sacred ritual in the flesh spaces 4 times this year. To practice together. To feel. To express. To be in the deep sacred space. To make magic that can’t be made alone.⁣
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This weekend was powerful. Deep. Intense. I didn’t get out of bed for a few days after and a few days before. There was so much energy and bravery in the room. ⁣
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People facing buried traumas. ⁣
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People finding the courage to share their voices with the world. ⁣
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To stop being casual about life and to light their hearts aflame!
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Lately, with Covid and everything happening I feel like time is ticking in a new way. The Now feels way more full and real than ever.⁣
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It’s not time to put off creating.⁣
Speaking.⁣
Sharing.⁣
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There really isn’t time for:⁣
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“Maybe next year!”⁣
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Or ⁣
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“I’m not ready yet.”⁣
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The time is now for Creation to spark in your Heart and Womb- for your passions to move through you, lighting up your Soul’s path in this world.⁣
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Bravo to everyone doing the courageous work of being seen and heard and sharing and putting new narratives into the tired collective ones, for energizing this reality with truth and love- for being Wake Up Beacons!
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@sensual_radiance (pictured above) does incredible workshops and classes for women to get into their bodies and dance and listen to their circles.⁣
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@the.body.poems is an artist and healer boldly sharing her gifts.⁣
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I’m honored to hold these two women and so many others this year in the next phase of their becoming-⁣🦋
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Picture by @taylorbartram - also amazing artist in our program 🌹

AHHH so honored to be on this book list on @bustle

AHHH so honored to be on this book list on @bustle today for best top 20 summer reads amongst geniuses writers like #zadiesmith and Pulitzer Prize winner #natashtrethewey wild man @jimcarreyhere and icon #alektrebek ! 🥳💓

Its not about ⁣ getting it right ⁣ or wrong⁣

Its not about ⁣
getting it right ⁣
or wrong⁣
It’s simply ⁣
about ⁣
having the courage ⁣
to show up⁣
To take the risk⁣
To fall⁣
To crack open⁣
To expose⁣
One’s Heart⁣
To the World Before You Die⁣
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And that takes⁣
Chipping⁣
And exorcising⁣
And practicing⁣
And enlivening⁣
And listening⁣
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Because that Heart⁣
Has been stomped on ⁣
so many times⁣
It’s been stolen⁣
Maimed⁣
Spat Upon⁣
And Held⁣
And Kissed⁣
And Nurtured⁣
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But somehow ⁣
the Pain ⁣
stands out ⁣
more clearly⁣
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Saying:⁣
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“Do not take the risk! Do not expose yourself! Do not speak up! Do not create! Do not look dumb! Do not love that big! Do not risk getting hurt!”⁣
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But how will you live this big big life you are meant to live?⁣
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But how will you live this big big love you are meant to live?⁣
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But how will you give this big big gift you are meant to give?⁣
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If you aren’t putting it all on the line now...
Why?⁣
Why?⁣
Why?⁣
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You could die tomorrow!⁣
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Have the courage⁣
To Love⁣
To Share⁣
To Write⁣
To Create⁣
To Speak⁣
To Shine⁣
To Play⁣
To Look Dumb⁣
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Please please please look dumb!⁣
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It is so FREEING!⁣
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Please please please be rejected!⁣
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It is so cathartic! ⁣
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Please please please get it wrong!⁣
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It is your liberation! ⁣
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When you are messy / wrong / looking dumb⁣
For having taken a leap⁣
To Love⁣
To Create⁣
To Shine⁣
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Please look at your wild messy wrong dumb looking self⁣
In the Mirror⁣
And Laugh Wildly At the Illusions You Just Shattered!⁣
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High Five that Mirror⁣
Cheers Her !⁣
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The WaterFall of God Love Infinite Inside of You ⁣
Is Just a Little More Free Now⁣
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HURRAY⁣
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What do you have to lose?⁣
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A Constant Letter to my Own Heart to Be Courageous, Take Risks, Live Big, Love Big and Let it All Break Me Open to More Truth Love Freedom Surrender xxx⁣
Photo in Magic Topanga by @inna.lila

Happy Monday😊🌹🔥⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ This is one

Happy Monday😊🌹🔥⁣⁣
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This is one of the poems in my book and I hope it gives ya a little fire this morning to keep doing the deep digging and mining of gold this week ! ⁣⁣
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Whether we are uncovering old internal and personal, or collective patterns- ⁣⁣
it requires a lot of courage and energy and not doing it in the old obvious ways but allowing change and transformation internally and externally to have its own path- new, guiding you in the dark, walking with a blindfold on and saying:⁣⁣
⁣⁣ “Take me. Love me. Crush me. Transform me. I am yours.”⁣⁣
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This is how I speak to Life 😉Okay not every day! But many. ⁣⁣
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Wishing you the Courage for the ride today! ⁣
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P.s. If you pre-order my book you get a guided embodiment practice - help you transform feelings from pain to bliss- and get through stuck or heavy vibes- link in bio 🔥🌹🙏🏼⁣

Sometimes I have wondered why it’s been such a d

Sometimes I have wondered why it’s been such a deep practice 🔥to learn to feel🔥 to learn to have the ✨courage✨ to feel...even the most difficult things that seem would be better off staying buried.
But now I get it.⁣
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If we hadn’t been practicing feeling the depths of our pain, shame, guilt in retreats and in rooms and in practices and ceremonies, so that our bodies and nervous systems could be stretched open - we could not show up to this time!
We would be stuck in the head saying “Wow. That’s hard. How shitty.”⁣
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But without the capacity to ✨stay open✨ as we hear terrible news, take accountability, and take action that requires walking through sticky sticky feelings and situations.⁣
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If you have never done the work to feel all your own feelings and sit in your uncomfortable spots- you likely cannot show up right now fully.⁣ And yet it’s never too late to get started! (Come to @radicalawakenings - we will crack ya open 😋🔥.)⁣
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But for those of you who have been doing the deep work, sitting in fires, feeling it all, un-numbing from all the years of “I’m fine” - YOU my dears have a capacity to show up right now beautifully- not afraid of the discomfort - not fragile or running from fear or shame or guilt.⁣
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It is certainly not easy!!! If you’re living with an open heart, embodied, attuned to the subtleties of energy —well then this time is truly an 🔥initiation🔥.
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Will you stay open?⁣
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Feel it all?
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Show up courageously anyway?⁣
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Scream and cry and write and share and hold space OR ⁣collapse and shut down because it’s all “too much” to face?
Player’s Choice!⁣ (as one of my mentors says!)
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We can either stretch to show up or say “it’s too much” and back away.⁣
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The good news is when you have the courage to feel the depth of the pain - the depth of joy /bliss comes right alongside it! 🎉More on now to do this art of internal alchemy / embodiment and transformation in my book! ⁣
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👉🏼And thank you for making it #1 Best New Release in 3 categories! Today it hit #1 in psychology + sexuality ! 🥳Whew! Thought I was gonna get stuck in new age lol 😳☠️🤣🤦🏽‍♀️) ⁣
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Painting by @dominoefarris / ps. the element of fire moves energy / wakes us up / is necessary !

Showing up during this time in the world takes cou

Showing up during this time in the world takes courage stamina open heart fire community tenacity courage to look at your shadows - and tools ! ⁣
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If I didn’t have tools when I opened the closet doors of my psyche I would have perhaps been plowed down by the Skeleton Party. ⁣
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It’s a delicious and delicate dance to say “Okay I am ready to show up and do the deep transformational work. Now what?” ⁣
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If you don’t prepare or have resources and methods and tools you can get stick in the mud of shames and the pain of the past that covers you like a dense blanket zapping your life force. ⁣
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That’s why most people don’t want open those basement doors ! ⁣
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You might get trapped down there. 😜⁣
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However when you have the courage to reclaim that internal space and go fetch out the dead parts and their shadowy friends from your psyche and internal space - it’s exhilarating and that’s what is happening in the world right now! ⁣
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A wake up and coming to terms with and moving forward from—- all at the same time! ⁣
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Your body / mind / spirit getting a chance to let go of hundreds of years of baggage- old beliefs and internalized bits you “didn’t choose” - but it requires some heavy lifting! Not gonna sugar coat that! ⁣
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The passage above is from the chapter in my book called “Get Real about Where You Are At” which talks about being we make the change we gotta see the skeletons and acknowledge them and stop acting like they aren’t there and begin to understand how these shadows have been carried with us for so long...next to my Women who went deep into shadows and light: Anaïs and Nan Goldin. ⁣
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Ps. We added the intro to my book for free on the pre-order page to get a taste - link in bio ☠️♥️😘 and:⁣
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✨✨✨IG LIVE writing practice for feeling and healing at 8 am pst / 11 am est- I’m a bit tired but I’m gonna rally!