Be Here Nowish – Season 2

2015, WEB SERIES

An original comedy series about two struggling New York women who ditch their dead-end jobs and head to LA in search for fun and spiritual awakening.

Co-created and directed by Alexandra Roxo. Vimeo on Demand, premiered with The Guardian and Vimeo.

Rent for $3.99 on Vimeo

To have the courage to face your patterns of hidin

To have the courage to face your patterns of hiding,
being terrified of vulnerability,
blocking love and intimacy,
or clinging to control
head on and be 100% honest to yourself about them is a feat!
It takes time.
AND it is worth it.
Whether you avoid,
Shut down,
Run for the hills,
Numb out,
Zone out,
Cataphrosize,
Go into your head,
Over analyze…
Whatever your drug of choice is the avoidance of that DEEEEEEP vulnerability—
to know what it is / they are — these things you do —
is the way to LOVE.
My favorites drugs of choice in moments of deep conflict or challenge that block my vulnerable LOVING are:
- Overthink.
- Go cold and hard and analytical.
- Isolate.
- Go into work and be “busy.”
Everyone has their tendencies that block love and intimacy and connection.
You can spend a life getting so good at those that you come to see them as YOU and not as defenses and blocks…
You may say “That’s just me.”
When it is not.
Once you see it is not YOU you can spend time softening the guards around the heart, massaging and melting and being accountable,
and responsible,
and facing those walls head on…
welcoming in the tender vulnerable YOU that wants to feel loved and seen and held.
And in the moments you OPEN wide and you aren’t met you will prob reach for your fave drug of choice again (I often do!) such as “go cold and harden” but you can also learn to stay open even when you don’t get what you want and to love there too —
Then your embodiment of Love isn’t about getting,
but about being that which you crave.
This is where the magic is.
Such a practice to live from the tender open fierce delicious wise and wild HEART with it’s time of life and death and life again….letting it open and close as need be.
Just like the seasons.
The Open Hearted Way….a path of devotion / a steep path at times / takes courage to be honest. Some days I don’t wanna. But I know I must.
Sending Love to you this Monday for an open heart and a dip into deep feeling and listening when possible...♥️
Ps. Link in bio to get on my mailing list- I’m doing a giveaway of something special in the coming weeks. 😘
📷: @francesca.chiamulera
#embodiment #divinefeminine #heart

✨On the Shift of Living From Power into Living f

✨On the Shift of Living From Power into Living from Love: Part 2 of 2.✨
There is no need to shame ourselves or each other for going through a phase of “Look at me I am sexy and free!” Or “Look at me I am rich!” Or “Look at me I am powerful!” Or simply “Look at me, look at me!!!!”
These are helpful parts of the journey and it’s a spiral- the needs may come and go.
(I have gone through all of those and am not ashamed of them. I am still evolving into balancing these values.)
This is a part of femininity -non gendered but archetypal-coming into consciosunesss…
This is where we truly reclaim the consciousness of feminine values and SOUL on this planet.
Sharing of money. Land.
Resources.
Power.
Celebration of who we are under the skin.
A return to Love.
We are in such critical times,
and whether we evolve into more creation here on this planet
instead of more destruction is in our hands-
It truly all starts in how we walk, love, share, and what we value everyday.
I have hope for us.
And I’ve been studying and making art about this for nearly 20 years and I’ve barely scratched the surface! Understanding how consciousness evolves is a deep mystery.
✨A note on concept of “feminine”-Not everyone resonates with the archetypal concept of femininity but I do. It’s a spectrum of experience, not a gender. And as we evolve there will continue to be more words to describe the human archetypal qualities. I’m here for that. Right now my audience here is 95% women so I speak more often to our experience of being embodied women. But these concepts can apply to anyone.♥️
✨For more writing, concepts, poetry, and teachings get on my mailing list- link in bio! I usually don’t share the longer work here but felt like it today.
📷: @bodyscapesinnature @shay.munroe
#embodiment #consciousness #femininity #divinefeminine #returntolove

✨On the Shift of Living From Power into Living f

✨On the Shift of Living From Power into Living from Love: Part 1 of 2.✨
If you are living in your conscious feminine, and you’ve done the work to liberate yourself from the past stories you’ve been told about yourself or that the world told you about You...
Then you no longer place your value in patriarchal ideals,
Your life isn’t built around money or power,
But Love.
A 3rd chakra to 4th chakra graduation and beyond !
It doesn’t mean you aren’t abundant and powerful…but those things are integrated...
You once broadcasted Power.
You now broadcast Love.
Healing.
Community.
Sharing.
You use your abundance for good.
Taking very good care of you AND...
You take care of community.
You share.
You don’t hoard wealth for wealth’s sake.
You enjoy healing around money and keep moving, not getting stuck there…
This graduation from unsconsious patriarchal ideals and values into conscious feminine ones (for all genders) is medicine for the earth.
Because it includes considering the Earth and all peoples.
Living for love and healing and repair of the community, nature, the family…
And moving away from collecting power, ambtion and money for the self.
No need to be afraid of power and money or push them away…just being conscious of the tendency to repeat what we have seen modeled…”me for me” and instead letting that old mentality evolve through us.
Same with ideals around body and beauty, you get to choose - as long as you have made it CONSCIOUS and you aren’t operating from unconscious desires to be validated / approved / liked…
If you can say “I wear makeup because I want to feel more beautiful. I appreciate attention.”
Then you are being honest and perhaps bringing your inner child’s lost needs for love into consciousness…
 And it is okay to be honest about wanting these things we didnt get as kids perhaps - money, approval, validation, attention….
But not get stuck there...
✨Continues in PART 2, next post ✨
📷: @bodyscapesinnature @shay.munroe
#embodiment #consciousness #femininity #divinefeminine #returntolove

The way I work with women as a mentor / coach / pr

The way I work with women as a mentor / coach / priestess / guide is the way I work with my own transformation and growth.
I don’t try to figure life out, or keep things tidy, and nice.
Life has never been tidy!
It’s raw, operatic, chaotic, disgusting, confusing, and brilliant!
In my work and my own life I find ways to…
-meet the moment openly from the heart and not head mostly
-to feel as deeply as possible
-to be aware and notice
- to express my deepest truths and speak up
-and come home to the innate wisdom that every body soul holds.
This is my own practice.
I have been going through more change than feels comfortable and there have been a LOT of feelings and a LOT of fear voices as of late.
I was so ready to meet a partner who wanted to go deep and when I did life moved faster than I expected -often happens this way for me!
Moving away from my Beloved friends in California has been heart wrenching.
Moving away from my Beloved Ocean has been a loss.
I LITERALLY feel like a fish out of water (#pisces).
Starting fresh as an adult in a new city has been overwhelming.
A New Yorker / Los Angeleno moving to a smaller town in Colorado is a CHANGE!
*And* it is the new adventure is what I asked for.
I’ve cried a LOT in the last few months feeling the depths of the transition I am in.
I’ve even wanted to pack my bags and go back to what I knew as “safe” and comfortable.
Sometimes life asks us to expand in many dimensions at once and it’s really psychologically and mentally and emotionally intense!
On the surface it can look chill and like no big deal, but inside the heart and body, it feels like a psychic death- this is the way of change…growth…expansion.
In these moments I lean on the one thing that is not new….my creativity and my practice of deep feeling, embodiment, expression, and coming home to my heart.
All I teach gets tested in these times and
I stand beside not figuring it all out,
or having it look good always,
or feel good always,
but allowing the range of life to move through me…
And staying OPEN to it,
Surrendering to it
And TRUSTING LIFE,
Even when it doesn’t make sense.
Pic: @shay.munroe / @bodyscapesinnature

I just love this scene in @toohotnetflix. Even tho

I just love this scene in @toohotnetflix. Even though it’s the sweetened condensed bikini version of a burning and releasing ritual - I am just so grateful that is on TV for millions to watch.
I’ve gotten so many sweet messages from people being touched by this moment.
As someone who has been sitting in circle with women doing ritual for beetle 20 years it’s just such a pleasure to share that with others.
Anyone can begin a ritual practice and I highly recommend it to newbies here on my page!
Follow the cycles of nature and the moon.
Do releasing rituals with fire.
Bathing rituals.
Writing rituals.
Get curious!
Light a candle, put on music, take a deep breath...
You have the innate power to ritualize your life from the casual and passive into a space of collaboration with life - and magic. ✨♥️
Bless these woman for opening up so vulnerably on TV...😘@larissa_trownson @melinda_melrose @emilyfayemillerr @carlylawrence_ @christinacarmelaofficial
Hat by @meshikahats ✨

One of the things I adore most about summer is how

One of the things I adore most about summer is how it is an open door to juicy embodiment with a ivy vine climbing rose blooming entrance that beckons...🌹🌱🪞🌱🌹
In the summer the body asks us to know it, to feel it, to listen to it-
We can ignore it less as we sweat and want to move our hips and leap into water-
This is a time to stop the mind chatter and be in nature !
Remember your Wild Self !
And put the phone away !
Stop worrying what people think of you and what will become of you
And lay your body on grass
And let your lips lick dripping fruit
Let rain fall upon you
And let salt waters cleanse you
And icy ones wake you up !
If you are a woman wanting to feel close to your body this season is free passage to put away the “I’m not good enoughs” and the “I wish it was this way...”
To make peace with the curves of your flesh as they are held and caressed by sun and sky looking like Nature herself with weathered edges and creased lines - rosy parts and glittering eyes - scars and soft caves...
Xx Happy Monday xX new podcast dropped this am! Link in bio + stories.
Photo by brilliant artist @shay.munroe @bodyscapesinnature who collaborated with my summer fairy archetypal self 🌱
#embodiment #femininesoul #eros #divinefeminine #healingjourney