Be Here Nowish – Season 2

2015, WEB SERIES

An original comedy series about two struggling New York women who ditch their dead-end jobs and head to LA in search for fun and spiritual awakening.

Co-created and directed by Alexandra Roxo. Vimeo on Demand, premiered with The Guardian and Vimeo.

Rent for $3.99 on Vimeo

A constant learning A constant leaning into Truth

A constant learning
A constant leaning
into
Truth
What is Here
Diving in
No standing at the Edge
Facing Fears
Piercing the Surface
Into the Deep
Excerpt from my book Chapter 2 - Get Real About Where You Are ...constant reminder.
Link in bio to get a free chapter of my book, still so so loving all your stories with the book! Fills my heart ♥️

This woman has been such a key part of my journey

This woman has been such a key part of my journey as a writer and mentor and artist. @rubywarrington discovered me when she was working for the London Times and she featured my web show "Be Here Nowish" in a 2 page glossy spread asking "Is this the new New Age?" Cut to two years later, we created Moon Club (which turned into @radicalawakenings) where we played with storytelling, astrology, moon rituals, healed ourselves, sifted through our own sh*t and empowered each other to stand, speak, share, and keep visioning and arting in this world.
She guest edited my book. And this is the 2nd time I am on her podcast. Super intimate...like me asking..."Do you see any of my old patterns come up around food ever? You can be real!" And she answers..."I did when you and X broke up. You were on back to back juice fasts."
The real talk about love. Workaholism. Eating. Pain. Addiction to "fixing ourselves" and more.
Ruby has reminded me that being a writer and speaker is enough. It's my deep and real calling and when I am with her, speaking with her, I am at my best.
Enjoy our convo where I talk about healing, too much wellness talk leaving me ready to bounce into new realms, my love and sometimes too much love of food / tobacco / love / all of it, no shame, just learning, just being....like I speak of so much in my book....link in stories xx

"The most glorious moments of love and bliss I hav

"The most glorious moments of love and bliss I have experienced in this life have happened when I let go..."
A line from my book that I need to tell myself most days.
Let go of attachments. Agendas. Control.
Just be.
Surrender.
Something that my former life as a mermaid reminds me ;) Missing my underwater days united with my true Piscean nature in Tulum...
Happy Friday day of Venus, Freya, Goddess...diving into my heart and offline for a few days after all this mega book love and sharing.
Thank you all so much for all the stories and tags of your book reading! Keep them coming pretty please!
I'll be finding some lakes or rivers or waterfalls to swim in naked this weekend, staring at the stars, laughing with a child, feet on grass, book in hand (not mine but one of the 20 i am currently reading) and breathing the night air....mmm xxx
ps. thank you @papayaplayaproject tulum from holding me during my book launch week with socially distanced breathwork, outdoor concerts, tea ceremony, qi gong, yoga, intimacy workhop, dance class, amazing food and drinks, pools I swam naked in, mosquitoes that ate me alive...what a magical time I am still landing from, feeling deeply after these quarantine months...x

She has done her work,⁣⁣⁣ and keeps doing it

She has done her work,⁣⁣⁣
and keeps doing it,⁣⁣⁣
and it’s hard work!⁣⁣⁣
But she does it so she knows even in the darkest of storms,⁣⁣⁣
how to find her way home to her heart,⁣⁣⁣
Her soul,⁣⁣⁣
Her wholeness.⁣⁣⁣
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She shows you her weaknesses⁣⁣⁣
Her soft spots⁣⁣⁣
And laughs.⁣⁣⁣
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She doesn’t need to put on a facade that she’s okay all the time.⁣⁣⁣
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She isn’t okay,⁣⁣⁣
Or not okay⁣⁣⁣
She just IS.⁣⁣⁣
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She’s been to the depths of her own hells and back again,⁣⁣⁣
She’s loved big and will love more,⁣⁣⁣
She gets food stuck in her teeth,⁣⁣⁣
She cries on the floor,⁣⁣⁣
She laughs loud,⁣⁣⁣
And just⁣⁣⁣
IS⁣⁣⁣
whatever⁣⁣⁣
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IS.⁣⁣⁣
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She has nothing to be afraid of anymore.⁣⁣⁣
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BUT if fear gets a hold of her when her awareness has slipped away, ⁣⁣
when she’s tired, ⁣⁣
or hormonal, ⁣⁣
or at an edge of growth-⁣⁣⁣
She stares it in the face⁣⁣⁣
She lets it moan, ⁣⁣
cry ⁣⁣
and have a life ⁣⁣
and watches it transform before her eyes, ⁣⁣
as it gets the attention ⁣⁣
and presence ⁣⁣
that it craved⁣.⁣⁣
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As she faces each fear she is granted more height⁣⁣⁣
More breadth⁣⁣⁣
More courage in the world⁣⁣⁣
More presence⁣⁣⁣
More power⁣⁣⁣
More compassion⁣⁣⁣
To do her work,⁣⁣⁣
To share her gifts,⁣⁣⁣
To speak loud,⁣⁣⁣
To shine.⁣⁣⁣
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So she keeps facing the fears⁣⁣⁣
and becoming more and more present,⁣⁣⁣
radiant,⁣⁣⁣
strong.⁣⁣⁣
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And people say: “Oooh you look radiant! Is it the hot yoga? The microderm? The la mére cream?” ⁣⁣
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She smiles and says: “No, just been facing my fears, making love to my own demons until they turn to gold and light me up from the inside.“⁣⁣⁣
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***One of my favorite poems written during book writing- I had to cut this version down to one page to fit in the book at the beginning of Chapter 4, so this is the unedited one shared here for you ****
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• An Incantation to the Whole Wild Fierce Loving Divine Womxn Within You •

“The thing I have learned about f*cking like a g

“The thing I have learned about f*cking like a goddess is there there is no formula, no guarantee, excerpt committing to the present. To loving with an open heart. To feeling. To breathing. To letting every moment be a sacred moment of awakening, versus letting moments pass as mundane and causal, as if I were asleep.⁣⁣
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I choose awake.⁣⁣
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That means showing up so deeply, so alive, and so unattached to outcomes that it can be f*cking scary.⁣⁣
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When you f*ck like a goddess the stakes are high. It can be frightening. You risk looking dumb or not knowing what will happen. But you risk for love. For living. For waking up. You do it, not only for you, but for the planet, the beings who will meet you with your wide-open raw heart and light shining through your eyes. Who will hear your screams and cries protecting the earth, your laughter shuddering through the skies. Who will feel your orgasms like a healing balm on the atmosphere.”⁣⁣
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✨Excerpt from my book F*ck Like A Goddess that I read yesterday to 70 womxn on our @radicalawakenings call- what a glorious gathering!⁣✨
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Thanks to all who came!⁣🙏🏼
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If you haven’t bought the book link in my bio for a bonus guided practice of heart opening 🌹♥️and I may just add my opening empowering transmission from last night- dunno who was speaking through me but she was fiery 💥👹😻🔥☄️stay tuned for a version to music for days when you need a little fiery inspo to live big!!! 🤘🏼👄Photo by @inna.lila in my happy place skin bare to Mama Nature with my dear friend the Rose 🌹

Today I am honored to be featured on the @soundstr

Today I am honored to be featured on the @soundstrue podcast “Insights at the Edge” interviewed by founder Tami Simon.
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Perhaps one of the most potent interviews I have ever done. Very vulnerable. Raw and real.⁣
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Tami has interviewed so many amazing beings and published their books too- from Pema Chodron to Eckhart Tolle to Carolyn Myss to Wim Hoff and so many other visionaries...I am honored to be here amongst them.⁣
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I am simply a womxn with a story that I continue to share, year after year of this wild human existence. ⁣
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In films, photos, articles, posts, creative projects, and now...a book!⁣
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If you’re new here, hello and welcome!⁣
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I am a dreamer, a holder of a vision, a philosopher, an artist of life, and a poet. ⁣
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I tell stories. I take risks. I share my heart. And I mentor others in the same journeys. ⁣
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I have nothing new or original to say. But I offer my visions and dreams and stories and philosophy of living through this human vessel I was gifted, through the heroine’s journey I am living upon and the strange kaleidoscope of this Me that I am with a wide open heart as my offering to the world, which is what makes it new...⁣
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My stories are not mine⁣
So I gift them back out again ⁣
Into the wind⁣
And sea⁣
And IG !!!⁣
And books and podcasts⁣
And poems ⁣
And all the places my Heart can waft onto - enjoy and I hope they set you alight!
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Link in stories to the podcast⁣ x
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Happy Full Moon in Aquarius!⁣
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My moon is in Aquarius and it makes such sense !!⁣
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Big love xxx