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Marilyn Allen, O’ Shea Agency

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Author, Speaker, Guide.
🌹“Stay to get in touch with the divine feminine within.”-@nytimes
Founder: @radicalawakenings
1st book out 7/21, @soundstrue!

Who emerges for each of us⁣ when the doing is so

Who emerges for each of us⁣ when the doing is softened?⁣
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What traces of Your Soul have you heard whisper⁣ as the outside quiets ?⁣
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What values have you returned to?⁣
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What Soul Parts have you lost track of?⁣
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What Relaxed Ease beckons You?⁣
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What does the Death lingering in the air remind you about your living?⁣
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What have you forgotten?⁣
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What are you forgetting to remember ?⁣
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Utter acceptance of that which is⁣
The pathless path⁣
Softer⁣
More open⁣
Yielding⁣
The way of Being ⁣
Naturalness as the hair grows⁣
And the nails grow⁣
And my hands cook and clean ⁣
The busy slips away⁣
Ease emerges
Mother Nature lives again through me, un encumbered.
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Sunday Reflection on 10th Gene Key, Being.

⁣ 💥🌹Today at 3 pm PST / 6 on EST I’m goi

⁣ 💥🌹Today at 3 pm PST / 6 on EST I’m going to lead an IG LIVE- Sensual meets Mystical Writing Coven on IG live- we will do some writing together and I’ll pull people on to read live with me! Let’s make magic out of our hungry and thirsty bits!

In my reading the other day with a new energy worker he said: “Wow! You have this very old mystical heightened soul. Like a nun, yogi, priestess. And then you have **this** body...”⁣
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I burst out laughing!
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I said...”Yes, I know. Alexandra is a lot!”⁣
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He explained to me that my body ‘s intelligence and makeup was the exact medicine I needed in order to do my karmic work this lifetime.⁣
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That if I tried to tame / calm / avoid this body and it’s ways I would miss the point. ⁣
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But if I let it lead I would also miss the point. ⁣
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I told him. “Yes, I’ve built a business on this integration of wild sensual body and mystical soul!” And I laughed some more...”Like Damn is it that obvious?!” 😳🙈
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I am far from mastery! I still have shame that comes and visits my body + soul struggle for who gets the stage. ⁣
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Chiron in Taurus and two Taurus parents have provided me the perfect foundation for a deep love of love, pleasure, food, wine, s*x - and most of this life my soul has frowned up them and judged them and myself for it!⁣
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It’s been a deep deep dance at times between holy holy and wild and wanton, as my deepest unfolding. ⁣
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Your Chiron placement in astro will help you with understanding your wound! And I often think the things that came up as children / teens continue to be the overarching themes as we evolve.

I’ve come into more and more acceptance of her as I get older, but it’s still a work in progress.
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One way I feed my hungry sensual depths safely is by writing ! I can enact my fantasies there. I can go wherever I wish. I can be as f*cked up as I please. As dark. As weird. As non linear. It’s such a beautiful relief. I can go as far out and mystical and also go as bawdry and spicey and submissive and freaky. It’s a relief to let art and poetry be a space where our Deep Parts can roam free.
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Image of my Chiron in Taurus, wine 🍷 and 🍫 Heart by @bloodboneandhoney

After about 5 days steeped in heaviness, overwhelm

After about 5 days steeped in heaviness, overwhelm, in my deep seas...Living alone, feeling alone in moments, ecstatic in others, reading, crying, praying for the people I know with the virus, worrying about so many people, praying and crying on repeat #piscesstyle, in my feminine subterranean, and also tired of staring at the internet...I heard a voice: “COME ON ROXO! You are creative! How can you have a little fun? Get up! What about showing up at your bestie’s house for an impromptu shower of play at a 6 ft distance?!!!”⁣ This was my inner daddy / king telling me to get up! So I did.
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A fence separates and social distances us, but the love is real!⁣
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I will keep thinking of creative social distance ways to play and love! 💥What about texting everyone I love that I love them ?⁣
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Basic, but good.⁣
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💥What about sending videos to people I love when we were touching and hugging ?⁣
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Better.⁣
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💥What about drawing for those I love?⁣
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Cute!⁣
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💥Writing them poems? Karaoke together on FaceTime ⁣? Oooh! Could I get my neighbors to draw circles w tape on the street and do a block dance party distanced? Probably not but I will hold the vision! ⁣
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I’m still brainstorming....I would love to hear from those of you who live alone / how you are working with your aloneness ? ⁣
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I have identified with “Lone Wolf” and “Loner” and “Mystic on a Mount” archetypes most of my only child latch key kid life with divorced flight attendant parents...but I’m just feeling like ***not*** sliding deeper into those archetypes and into my aloneness as i have been an expert at it, but instead I would like to become an expert at connecting and loving under all circumstances! Feels like a beautiful challenge!⁣
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Would love to hear from you as to how you are receiving and giving Love and Play in these trying times ! ⁣
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🌹♥️This one goes out to all the magic men! Including my soul brother for many incarnations who lives up the street! Taking requests in the west side LA area for drive by dance parties and songs ! 💃🏻
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💥PS! 💥📝Tomorrow 3 pm PST / 6 pm EST - Sensual meets Mystical Public Writing Coven on IG live- come ready to share and play in the deep and sweet waters of your soul 🐳🐬🐟

I will not forget fun !⁣ I will not forget silly

I will not forget fun !⁣
I will not forget silly!⁣
I will not forget feet squeezes!⁣
I will not forget funny voices!⁣
I will not forget kissing !⁣
I will not forget cuddling !⁣
I will not forget being brought tea!⁣
Being washed in a bath by someone I love surrounded by candles!⁣
Having breakfast with someone !⁣
My hair being played with!⁣
Being asked “Will you read me a book?” by a child !⁣
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If perhaps like me you’ve choosing a path of quite a bit of aloneness this life, so far (can change any moment!) but for now, letting the pain of it split you open is a difficult delight- takes surrender / practice / throwing out victim stories / a deep relationship with pain / and a deep relationship with love.⁣
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If love were easy then something else would be less easy! For my soul, it’s a good homework assignment this life to learn the ways of love. Still only know by like 15% perhaps. And that’s cool cause I hope to have time and enjoy the unraveling of its mystery! ⁣
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I can look at aloneness as my soul’s desire for ample writing and meditation time this life! Which works some days. “Oh I’ve written scripts and made films and blah blah blah! I have such space to practice! It’s made me the weirdo mystical freak that I am!”⁣
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And I can also honor the pain of the big aloneness letting it remind me to deeply deeply savor my time when I am with others, letting it split me open into desiring the simplicity of a shared room in silence, the delicacy of one hand on my lower back feeling- like god is holding me, being lead to put work on the back burner for this next phase and put love and community even further into the spotlight.⁣
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I highly recommend - if you’re spending most of this time alone, and been thrust further into your aloneness - spending time watching videos and looking at pictures of moment you felt loved, letting it be a beautiful ritual, crying, moaning, laughing, writing, praying- letting it open you like deep medicine- writing out scenes of what your togetherness will be like moving forward, how you will love more, take more risks for loving, touch more, play more or whatever emerges for you—- ⁣
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Tribute to all these friends. Thank you for loving me 😍🙏🏼💓

I lift the mead to your lips⁣⁣ There is blood

I lift the mead to your lips⁣⁣
There is blood under your nails⁣⁣
I can sit on your lap ⁣⁣
Legs spread⁣⁣
Facing you ⁣⁣
Pressed.⁣
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A glimpse in a dream, a life past-⁣⁣
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Sunlight⁣⁣
Meet me there⁣⁣
Under the blanket⁣⁣
Rolled like a fruit Rollup with ⁣⁣
Little dust particles illuminated in the air ⁣⁣
The skin sticks to skin ⁣⁣
Kissing pore to pore⁣⁣
It’s own sweet cocktail of mixing hormones creating⁣⁣
A potion ⁣⁣
A prayer ⁣⁣
Witchcraft while we sleep⁣⁣
Our bodies with their own agenda⁣⁣
When our minds rest and our will is quiet ⁣⁣
Slipping into sleep we follow the silver cord home⁣⁣
The J train is loud, no trees close.⁣
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Past lives visit- ⁣
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I am here again. ⁣⁣
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Wondering.⁣⁣
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Skimming through how we got here.⁣⁣
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Investigating. ⁣⁣
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How did we forget to pray?⁣⁣
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How did it become about money and commerce?⁣⁣
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When did we stop singing in circles daily?⁣⁣
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I find no answers.⁣ And many. ⁣
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I give thanks.⁣⁣
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Thank you mama aya, witch camp, Bhakti, Chemin de St. Jacques, Lourdes, Nepal-
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Thank you all that have reminded me to⁣⁣
Remember -⁣⁣
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Wake up they said!⁣⁣
It’s time to sing and dance and celebrate ⁣⁣
To learn to plant seeds⁣⁣
To learn to birth babies⁣⁣
To learn to grieve⁣⁣
To pull down the masks ⁣⁣
To say thank you thank you thank you⁣⁣
Everyday!⁣⁣
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We are the ones we have been waiting for⁣⁣
We are the oracles⁣⁣
We are the truth tellers⁣⁣
We are the mystics⁣⁣
We are the wild women returned⁣⁣
We are the witches ⁣⁣
We are alive⁣⁣
We are out for blood⁣⁣
We are soft as a kitten⁣⁣
We want to be pet⁣⁣
We long to be held⁣⁣
We may bite if you try and cage us⁣⁣
We have been trained in the temple arts⁣⁣
We dance⁣⁣
We sing⁣⁣
We cook⁣⁣
We make beauty everywhere we turn⁣⁣
We write poetry⁣⁣
We are trained in the erotic ⁣⁣
We recall the past lives⁣⁣
We yearn to be met⁣⁣
We are ready to open ⁣⁣
We are ready to love ⁣⁣
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We must let go ⁣⁣
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In order to be held.⁣⁣
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Oh I’m so sorry it seems I am shouting!⁣⁣
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I’m just so ecstatic to walk barefoot again⁣!⁣
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To swim naked again !⁣
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To have an excuse to be me again ⁣⁣
To wake and ritual⁣⁣
To sleep and sacred⁣⁣
To become non linear⁣⁣
To become a dream⁣⁣
Walking ⁣⁣
Wafting ⁣
Love⁣⁣
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How to Surrender⁣ ⁣ I’ve been practicing for

How to Surrender⁣
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I’ve been practicing for so long and yet still in moments the grips are tight! ⁣
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“But what will be?!”⁣
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I bite my nails. ⁣
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“What will come?!”⁣
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I look to my planner.⁣
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With fear and excitement I submit to the Invisible Daddy Dom, who has cleared my schedule, some of my bank account, and put me in confinement begging for a strong hand to stroke my head.⁣
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Who knows what will stay and what will go...and well, there is deep pleasure in this surrender - a sweet melting of having “it together”⁣
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Melting into me “not having it together”⁣
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A deep letting go...⁣
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I’ve been practicing this whole surrender thing for so long, and yet I am no master - I have sought to give myself to it in medicine ceremony as my body shook and shivered and undulated for hours and hours, outside of my control...crying “Mercy! Take from me all that is not free!”⁣
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In the ropes, dangling in sweet nothingness until the moment I had to cry “Mercy!”⁣
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I’ve been practicing for years now...perhaps lifetimes-⁣
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And yet I am far from mastery! ⁣
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Still the mind - wants to know, to confirm, to budget, to organize this reality...⁣
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And so now I practice letting go!

Laughing at it all!

And it feels so so so good, even in the pain, when I cry on the floor, when I feel alone, when I am scared, I practice a deep surrender.⁣
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Yesterday we gathered to do an hour long practice of invocation, prayer, ritual, breath, sound, dance, and writing.

I’m amending the practice to encompass all the elements that work best for me in one hour. And will be recording that soon- for a morning practice, one hour: Calling the divine feminine down into physical form, releasing, feeling, invocations, conjuring, softening...for those called to such a practice of surrender to Her. ⁣
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To call forth the oracle, the seeress, the priestess, the witch, the healer, to feel for the Mother. ⁣
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To melt into formless love. ⁣
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Next group one next Monday.
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Thank You to all who joined and cried and prayed with me. It was exquisite!
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Video of my Shibari Japanese Rope Art Surrender Practice with @miss_true_blue in January on our planning retreat for my mastermind Initiation.

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