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A poem from new book I just was editing this morni

A poem from new book I just was editing this morning, thought I would share. ♥️
Wishing all hearts love today- those who feel alone, those who feel overwhelmed or angry or sad or hopeful and soaring.
Remembering we are all on this wild human journey together.
Blessed be.
May all beings be free from suffering.
😘Alexandra

I love the ones who aren’t afraid to talk about

I love the ones who aren’t afraid to talk about their scars.
Not only talk about them,
but the ones who wanna show ‘em to me!
Who don’t treat them like reminders of grim terrors,
but like stitches in a colorful quilt,
a tapestry of interwoven magic and mistakes turned to wisdom…
Sorry,
but I’m just not interested in what you had for lunch.
Or where you went on vacation.
Or what you have studied.
I’m interested in how you love,
and how you have been loved,
and how you let Love love you.
I want to hear about your glorious f&€k-ups,
And your epic openings!
I want to hear about the risks you took that didn’t work out!
Your wild nights and quiet mornings…
When people withhold these things,
keep ‘em under lock and key,
I feel chilly in their presence.
Like I’m waiting for a big reveal that’s never going to happen.
But then,
I meet One with the scars,
the twinkle in the eye,
and a raw open Heart with nothing to hide,
blackened corners,
and stitches exposed…
And I can breathe!
I am warm again!
This is loving free.
❤️‍🔥 SCAR CLAN…a poem from my upcoming book of heart tales, oracle readings, musings and more, this one I revised and still like…❤️‍🔥 Out in #piscesseason with @numinous_books 🧜🏻‍♀️

I remember about 6 months into my relationship bei

I remember about 6 months into my relationship being at a New Year’s gathering where it was all couples and we were going around saying what dessert our partner would be if they were one…
I had been going back and forth from LA to Boulder and I was still not sold on Boulder, the people here, or even my budding partnership!
RESISTANCE.
So when it was my turn to say what dessert my partner is I did something slightly evil - my rebellious-teen-b&$tch-too-cool-for-school came out- I watched her and let her…I said: “I don’t know him well enough to say.”
I was amidst a vulnerability hangover with all these new people in a new place and with this man I had PRAYED to meet for years…
And I still chose to CLOSE my heart.
I watched as his friends watched me with kindness and compassion. They tried to help me out of my heart closed pickle by suggesting desserts…
And I was just a big fat NO.
I was clinging to dear life to my “independence” and “separateness” and “safety.”
Making it clear “I am not one of you!”
Eventually two of his female friends chose his dessert and I sat with my smugness.
I could tell they felt sympathetic to me. And that they saw straight through my closed heart.
It was a heart that LONGED to belong.
LONGED to be loved.
And yet the spikes came out!
I see this happen so many times with women. We want something so badly and then it’s terrifying to receive.
Ground shaking actually.
Thank Goddess I’d been practicing so much opening and softening, I eventually made it through the “I’m not sure about you and your people” phase and into LOVE.
Discernment turned into judgment and separation…until I cracked and let love in.
It can be excruciatingly painful to be loved if there’s wounding there.
In my gene keys I have three line 4’s in my heart/Venus sequence so I know this armor - wound of rejection and been working it for years…otherwise I would just push all love away.
I practice staying soft and trusting love…even when I don’t wanna.
Happy Full Moon- may humanity’s hearts all open and remember we are L O V E.
Candid Pic of me and my Love in the wild by @thefeminineheart
#JourneyofLove
#genekeys
#venussequence

For years I’ve been working on the same “thing

For years I’ve been working on the same “thing” in my romantic relationships:
How to work and hold down so much like a boss and then surrender into full goddess soft and open mode quickly?
I have NOT mastered this, but I practice it and track it closely.
Too many hours at computer and with focused thinking and it’s hard to unwind quickly.
And many of the women I work with are in this same boat…
When maintaining strong clarity and direction and holding a lot how do we then let ourselves be held, soften into mush and the senses, and trust the container of another over our own?
I wrote about this in my book “F*ck like a Goddess” and back in 2016 I did @mariannewilliamson ‘s “Athena to Aphrodite” class and have been in deep contemplation since.
How can we be in email, clarity, sharp focus, holding space many days and then be ready to open our hearts and bodies into the spectrum of my femininity from wild to soft to fierce to silly?
Wine used to help me.
Baths help.
Dance helps.
But if I spend more hours sitting still and being focused and sharp then being soft and creative and surrendered into life then it can take HOURS to unwind.
A bath won’t cut it!
For women who actually love their work and love to be that Athena on the hunt- how do we transition into Aphrodite energetically? (Not just in an outfit! Tho that helps!)
This is a long ongoing inquiry for me. I see very few women in the public eye who hold down both frequencies / the full spectrum. (pls share any below! Love to be inspired re this topic!)
I teach ways to do this and yet I find it’s still not easy!
The truth is if we are practicing sitting still at a computer all day then we need to run and play and dance and feel and write poetry to balance it out.
And if there’s laundry and dishes and grocery shopping and workouts then it’s easy to poo poo that Lounging Aphrodite time.
If our world prioritized the earth, nature, bodies, love, art and not money, work, career, ambition then perhaps this would be easier.
It’s a big leap. And the shift starts with us.
♥️😘Alexandra
Photo A: chillin in soft vibes by @permissionary
Photo B: on the prowl by @moundsimone
#consciousfemininity

On this week’s solo podcast I answer one of your

On this week’s solo podcast I answer one of your questions about dating someone who you admire and feeling awkward about it, and also I talk about codependency with work and other things listed below.
(Also- Who sent this question?! DM me 🥰😘)
Next questions you submit for me to answer pls email with a voice note mp3 and I’m gonna add YOU into the podcast !🤓
In this episode, you’ll also hear:
• About using discernment around celebrities or well-known people in the public eye, and how to distinguish between being attracted to someone’s spotlight vs. seeing them as a human being underneath it all.
• Ideas on how to be comfortably yourself in a romantic relationship and be in awe of the other person, but not in worship of them, and what that difference really is.
• My experience of what codependency can feel like and how it can be applied beyond just human relationships, but often to our businesses as well.
• Identifying the difference between working hard with passion to put your gifts into the world, or being in addiction with your business and the way you are putting your work out into the world.
• And more😘
Enjoy and Happy Monday 😘
Cozy comfy dress by @shopkristinit -
Pic by my soul sister @moundsimone 🧜🏻‍♀️💃🏼

Everybody got choices! Live in fear Or Live in lo

Everybody got choices!
Live in fear
Or
Live in love
Face what’s happening on this planet
Or
Pretend all is okay in the relative world and live in a bubble
Coffee
Or
Tea
Dance and cry and scream and shout and pray
Or
Smile and keep calm and carry on
SO MANY CHOICES!
Embody love
Or
embody fear
is my personal fave moment to moment choice.
You?
Ps. We got this ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥😘
#reckoning #earth #kaliyuga #dontdrowninfear #chooselove #beaccountable