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“The art of surrendering to the magic that is be

“The art of surrendering to the magic that is beyond explanation, the same magic that makes flowers blossom and shooting stars pop through the air- that art is not taught in geometry classes or history classes about wars and economics. We are taught linear thinking. We are taught to seek certainty. To think in formulas. So to stop and say ‘Fuck that! I am going to surrender to something bigger than me’ is a revolutionary thing to do.”
💋👁from my book F*ck Like a Goddess, the chapter “F*ck like a Goddess No Matter What Life Brings You” — link in bio for free chapter, a juicy one ✨🎸👄🍯
Video of me in June, when I said yes to taking a risk, after 2.5 months solo quarantine drove 7 hours out of LA through 4 states, weeping the whole way in grief and ecstasy, got a psychic reading from the woman pumping my gas in Las Vegas on my way to a slightly unexpected meeting with Destiny, in a kingdom of Heaven...x

On a Dark Moon...⁣ ⁣ This year many of us had

On a Dark Moon...⁣
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This year many of us had plans. Book launch. (Hi!) New projects. Babies to be birthed. Life. To do these things amidst political and social shadows coming to light. In a time where our survival has been brought to the forefront and emotional upheaval has been high- has been a strange task!⁣
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My first spiritual teacher who I met when I was 12 wrote a book that spoke of this time. Back in the 90’s. He said natural disasters would escalate. Politics would become inflamed. Disease would come more rampantly. ⁣⁣
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As smoke fills the air so many days in many of our cities, as the sun is red with anger, as many we know have become ill, and some have passed, as natural disasters have come closer and more consistently present, our ability to stand present, awake, eyes open, heart exposed is being brought into light, to challenge, to test it feels.⁣
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As Two Wise Teachers this weekend said: “Remember what is sane.”⁣⁣
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Only you can define that for you.⁣⁣
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For me that includes hugs. Cooking. Singing. Crying. Laughter. Holding dear to my humanity because I have the beautiful opportunity to do so. And some humans may not.⁣⁣
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I will keep hugging, singing, cooking, dancing, writing and telling stories whether by candlelight because the power is out, indoors because the air outdoors is unsafe, or whether with masked eye smiles because I’m not allowed a mouth smile.⁣⁣
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I am committed to holding dear to the pulse of what’s sane, amidst a world that feels increasingly insane.⁣⁣
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I hope if it’s right for you, that you do too.⁣
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Sending prayers to my mama today as the hurricane is hitting down in AL, and to friends and strangers evacuated from the fires, to the women in my programs who have lost your jobs, to my friends who have lost their parents, to my family members with illness, to the new babies born in my family, the Love I have met, the poetry written, the songs sung, the coming together that has occurred in this time.⁣
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May the comedy and tragedy of the Theatre of Life be held with grace. ⁣
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Each moment of suffering met with at LEAST one of joy as this strange ships continues its sail - love and prayers to you all x⁣
pic @inna.lila

Hehehhehe one of my fave lines from my book! Okay-

Hehehhehe one of my fave lines from my book! Okay- not saying I condone aggressive behavior but I do condone loving play / humorous debates / and those “cold shower” moments of awakening.
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For me change and healing happen in the body, through feeling, speaking, sharing, expressing, creating- not just quietly sitting. It comes from bleeding out on the page, from stretching open the heart when it hurts, from staying in the room when you wanna leave, from not checking out and looking at your phone even tho you wanna, not going back to “me me me my needs my goals” but staying with the wide open heart needs of the greater whole. ⁣
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It’s a cracking open and it’s messy and raw and painful and joyful and weird- this is the gorgeous healing journey, the mythic journey of soul uncovering, the transforming of corrupt dna and outdated beliefs embedded in cell tissues. ⁣⁣
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It takes a courageous heart to stand in the fires of change...seems to be just beginning in this phase of human-ing we are in. More on that in my book! Link in bio and thanks to all the amazon reviews and to posts and shares- my book was on vacay in Sicily and it made my heart soar!! Wish I could be with it in form but I am in spirit ✌🏼💕🌈🌹😘

A Friday Poem of Change and Unraveling from the ra

A Friday Poem of Change and Unraveling from the rambling heart stream to you ♥️🌊
she lept into the mirage⁣
and said⁣
“dont worry i can sail this ship!”⁣
she had a tin can of dreams⁣
and a tube of 99 cent red lipstick⁣
she rode the mirage of “modern life” like a raging bull⁣ with balls bursting⁣
she drank the kool aids⁣ cause they were cool!
but spit some out⁣ secretly
winking at the stars⁣
she said⁣
“dont worry⁣
i wont get caught up in it all⁣
i know this life is precious⁣
ill be an under cover agent⁣
my badge⁣s
freckles and blue eyes⁣
and strong thighs.”⁣
but slowly she became numbed⁣
and stared at screens⁣
ordering things⁣
and ordering things
And ordering things...⁣
more time straing at a screen⁣
so much when someone rubbed her feet⁣
she wept⁣
she had forgotten
what touch was like⁣
she turned to the crows and asked about this dilemma⁣
they had no answer because they were making a nest out of stray ribbons and bottles laughing with their friends ⁣
she looked to the sky ⁣
to the sun⁣
but it was hidden behind smoke⁣
Red in anger,
distant and unavailable ⁣
So she climbed a tree and laid her head its branches⁣
“who am i?” she asked⁣ with sadness she stared at the bark then the sky then the breeze...
“ive been lookin in the wrong mirror.” She thought to herself.
So she decided to become a tear drop and she sank into the earth nourishing⁣
a seedling that perhaps,⁣
just perhaps,
would become an oak one day outlasting screens
and blings
and rings
and things...
Photo by @inna.lila ✨😇✌🏼okay phone going back on grayscale now and I’ll be back Monday! Big love to all. Hold your loved ones dear ♥️

I’ve been reflecting on the meaning of life in t

I’ve been reflecting on the meaning of life in these wild times and all the places I’ve been and things I’ve done searching for belonging/spirit/love...Here is me in Bhodgaya, India. Where they say Buddha reached enlightenment.
Why did me and @moundsimone and @itsjackiecantwell need to do face masks before going to see the Dalai Lama/ going to the Bodhi tree?⁣
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I guess we wanted to look good for HHDL or make sure our skin looked good if we got lucky (aka enlightened).
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We basically got kicked out trying to see HHDL because we hadn’t gotten “THE highest Tantra yoga initiation” and therefore were banned from all the weekend’s events.⁣
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@sahdsimone wouldn’t take NO for an answer about us being banned and we tried to sneak into all the “HIGHEST” (they kept reminding us) tantra yoga events though one woman was like “GET OUT! You didn’t get the initiation!”⁣ Sah stood up for this band of weirdos.
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It was a TRIP.
The things one (by one I mean me! Hi!) has done as a “spritual seeker” sometimes range from absurd / tragic / mad / irresponsible to sweet and courageous! Call it western grabby-ness, spritual thirstiness, lack of one’s own culture, loneliness AND / OR devotion to the Unknown, a remembrance of something deeper, a commitment to love- maybe all of the above...many things lead seekers to traverse wild times in search of *something.*
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I sat outside the ashram feeling confused by all this staring at a goat on a string and cried like “OMG this is the shadow of the desire for enlightenment. You get bullied at the ashram!!!”⁣
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We did make it to the Dalai Lama though.
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AND to the Bodhi tree. ⁣
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I share more about this trip in my book...around page 187.
Working on dismantling my own shadow of sometimes spiritual seriousness / occasional self importance / over-seeking over here. ITS A JOURNEY! 🥳
👉🏼PS. I’m on @shanboody ‘s show on @quibi #sexologywithshanboodram on “What is oversharing?” Link in Stories! (wait is this post a overshare? 😂☺️🤷🏽‍♀️😉🙃✌🏼)

Some of my fave notes + book reviews from these la

Some of my fave notes + book reviews from these last few months (DM’s shared with permission. Thank you!) I know the audience on @goodreads likes my book less than amazon (cause maybe you guys reviewed on @amazon.) I haven’t read all the crap ones cause why you know? ⁣
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I did that with my @vice film on YouTube twice and never did again. Since we were naive and offensive at times to some we got death threats and things and well - that was part of my Saturn’s Return lesson and naïveté to experience that level of critique publicly. ⁣
This endeavor is way more mature and therefore less animosity in return 🥳😎🙏🏼♥️ As an artist and creator - You live, you learn. Sometimes you do / say / write dumb or naive things and have to sit with that and own it! ⁣
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More on this in my newsletter today- how I have said dumb things to fit in unconsciously / my feelings about finding myself amidst spiritual materialism / popping ego balloons and getting off pedestals / and the next steps on my path. Enjoy- it’s in your inbox 😊🥮🍯💋🥰😎 THANK U to everyone who shared DM’s and reviews who enjoyed my book- I REALLY appreciate them!!